New Year Resolutions

1) Go to bed before 12.30 am
2) Be self disciplined
3) Not succumbed to temptation
4) Be decisive and stay firm with decisions made

Note to self:
Indecision is debilitating. Make up your mind and don't waver, even a little bit.

Twenty eleven

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
It's 2011!I spent the first 6 hours of the first day in 2011 eating Maggie mee,playing Play Station and chit chatting with a group of closed secondary school friends.That's just nice.A simple yet so special way to celebrate new year.

2011 means something special for me.
I am completing my degree.
I am 21 years old.
I am now an adult.

New year resolution:
Graduate with excellent results.
Figure out what I want in the future.
Work towards the target set.
And lastly,courage to spread my wings and embark the journey,no matter where and what it's going to be.

Wrap up

2010 is almost over!

Recall what have happened in the entire year,I realised how my life has been turned upside down with everything became a mess this year.I think I should really use the upcoming 3 months summer holiday to get things organised and get them back on track.Thanks to my dear family and friends,especially the actuarial gang,who are there for me all the time no matter I am happy or sad,helping me whenever I have any problems,esp in studies.I can't imagine how bad and messy my life would be without every single one of you.Thanks. :)

It's time to pack up and move on to a completely new year.I guess it's pretty much time for me to do that now.I would go for it once a decision has been made.It is just a habit to see it sitting there without any practical "use" or "meaning".It is time for it to go.I will force myself to do it at the end.I will.I just want to get it done before going back to home,and hopefully it symbolizes the beginning of something new.

Pause

This is the second last week of semester 2.My tutor said that he is going to do his PHD in Mathematics and Statistics in US after completing his honours this year.I asked him why doesn't he want to become an actuary and his answer was "Don't you think that it is a boring job?".Hmm...Quite true I guess.Anyway,the main point of this post is that I start to think about my future after today's tutorial.Seeing my tutor has a very clear direction of where to go and what to do upon completion of honours makes me wondering whether I am ready for my future.Whenever someone asks me what my future plan is,my answer would be - Complete all 3 parts of the exams offered by the Institute of Actuary of Australia to become an accredited actuary.It has become a "standard" answer for me.I didn't even think twice before saying that because it seems to me that it is the plan that I will go ahead for sure,it is the path that I have decided long time ago,it is something that I will definitely do!However,I think people tend to formulate their thought and decision that has been made in their mindset.Decision made,just follow the plan,case closed,that's it.I think I have fallen into this sort of situation where I have restricted myself in a corner.It has always been my plan to be an actuary in the future.Yes,it is a good plan.Yet,I shouldn't narrow down my options,at least not at the moment.Nothing else other than that has ever crossed my mind ever since I decided to be a qualified actuary.It is good to have a target but it is not ideal for us to shut all the other doors.There might be some other choices that are better than what we are having now.I think it's time for me to rethink about my future plan.Of course,I am not saying that I don't want to be an actuary anymore.I just want to open up my options,try to search for more opportunities,and maybe have a thought about what I really want.I might be more determined to proceed with my initial plan;or I might come up with another one.Who knows?

urge

If I could go to somewhere else,to experience a new life and learn something different,I am pretty sure that without hesitation,I would choose to leave and embark on the journey.I have the sudden urge to explore a new place,stay out of the comfort zone,and gain a totally new insight into life.Some of you might know that it is always my dream to travel to different countries and meet people from all sorts of backgrounds and culture.Hopefully the day will come soon!

it's gone

Ok,I folded it into half and threw it into the rubbish bin.After folding it into half,there is a line on it.There is no way I can make it go away.Many things in life are like this.There is no way we can make the crack or scar disappear.It exists forever no matter how hard we try to rub it away.So,why not we just put it down,let it go and start a new one?

I do not want to see 2 close buddies becoming enemies.It's a big NO NO for me.So what should I do to avoid that?Please,it's not worth it.NO WAY!I really hope that things will back to normal asap.Please understand that I want nothing more than that at the moment.

my pockets

i said in my previous post that i will talk about the daytrip to great ocean road but sorry people,i have no time to do that now.having midsem test tomorrow.i will do that after all the assignments and tests,promise!

it's freezing cold these few days.i just read qing ai de's blog and i can completely understand how you feel,qing ai de.i had the same feeling today when i was on the way back to home.it was windy and cold.and i suddenly realized that i can't put my hands in his pocket,with his hands holding mine tightly anymore.to be honest,the sad emotion hit me.but i told myself,so what?i have my own pockets!i can put my hands in MY own pockets!yes..i am not used to putting my hands in my pocket.yes..it has been a long time since i last blew on my hands to make them warmer.but it's time for me,perhaps for us,to learn to be strong and independent when no one is there for us.i believe that one day,there will be the right guy standing beside me,holding my hands,giving me warmth and love.so girls,jiayou together ok?it's hard but we can do it!before all of us meet our princes,take good care of ourselves,love ourselves.we can do it!!=)

jiayou!

i have submitted my application form for SALP!i really hope that i can get in!have been wanting to join it since last year but i was not eligible to apply for it since i was in my first year.i think it will definitely b a good+great+awesome+fantastic+superb experience!i finally took my first step applying for it!i m happy to get it done n send in the form.let's pray that i will receive an email in week 5.=D

it's time for revision!i m a bit left behind in probability.have to catch up asap!more assignments r coming up.2 group assignments and 1 individual assignment.. i like my group members for both OB and FM!guess we will get pretty close after finishing these assignments.hope everything will go on smoothly.=)

i think i should finish my last tutorial question n go to bed asap!i didn't rest well for the last few weeks.have been quite busy since the beginning of the semester.not to mention the pressure caused by my unstable emotion.i really need to replenish the sleeping hours that i have lost so that i won't feel so tired.nitez.

shining like a star

i feel relieved today.feel like the burden in my heart is no longer there.the stone has been moved away.don't ask me why or how did i manage to do that,it just happened last night when it struck me like a lightning. i heard a sound "bannggg~" and everything in my mind became clear.you don't deserve it.and i don't deserve it.i deserve a good life surrounded by joy and love.

thanks to my dear family and friends.i know there are many people who truly care about me.although we seldom meet each other,i can feel the love.distance doesn't make us far apart.seldom keeping in touch doesn't mean that we are not close.if someone can sense something happen on you merely from a few words or sentences,this shows how well they know you.if someone is willing to spend their precious time talking to you even if they are busy or during midnight,this shows how much they care about you.i m grateful for everything i have.thank you guys. ♥

if you really know me well,i bet you know that i don't give up easily.i am always determined in whatever i want to do.i was once very determined in working hard to maintain it and willing to solve all the problems no matter how hard it was just to make everything better.but now,let me tell you,i m determined to get over it and start a completely new life.i can do it,i m doing it,n i will manage to do it.people,don't worry about me.watch me shining like a star in the sky!